04 December, 2010
01 August, 2010
ON MY KNEEL
Life confronts parallel path when leading to the end from begin. On the way everyone experienced what they didn’t plan, but which make them grown up.
1---This experience starts when we are born and initiated crawling with the help of our two most sacred “friends”, first they sunk in uncontrolled laugh and exclaimed with joy at our first walk on four legs with the unspecific language. “My dear child, come here, come here!” They clapped their hands with encouragement and called us with that genius smile, at that very moment we fell, again hear their beautiful beckon and we start again on our four legs, again we fell, again they called, again we fell, and again they called. In this procedure eventually we are success in ‘wandering’ around the house and ‘speaking’ in our own language which magically they understand. Gradually they start correcting our language and they can’t control when we first called them Mom and Dad.
2---Huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh sign! Wipe! cry ! “ my dear children, don’t cry, I will give you chocolate and come to receive you than we can eat ice-cream together” this ‘temptation’ cheer us up a bit and when we are distracting with the sweet tongue and laughter of other friends, they vanished in some corner with promise of getting back to us again. Other friends are there, same age and same condition, with a mark of tear on their cheeks. We strolled into a beautiful room decorated with attractive toys and pictures, instantly we forgot the experienced and start dwelling on the floor, picking things, padding toys and playing with them. Innocent mind of our friends and us open the curtain of privacy and we started showing things around. “this is mine” said us, “No! this is mine” said others, “No! if you try to take it away from me than I will called my father and he is very brave, I am sure he will beat you” said us, “I will called my father as well and brother also, they can beat your father” said others……..! echoing with noises from every direction, the same decorated room become a hut of crying babies. Eventually when we back to school gate where our sacred friends are waiting, we started complaining. They said nothing, because they know this same complain will transform into compliment at the end when we declared this and that is my friend.
3---We draw things which parents praised and teachers rejoice, but still we haven’t touch the real drawing which our friends called Alphabet, A, B, C, D, E…….! when they pampered us to write them on some ornament book with cute pencil, they don’t mind for the A which hardly has any sign of A, they hold our hands and rewrite the word, some time they bribe us with sweets, sometime threaten us with pinch and some time owed us with compliment. Accordingly our reaction arouse in the form of satisfaction, tear and smile! Similarity in them and us is we never give up, they don’t give up because they believe in us and we don’t give up because we are not allow to give up! After some months and years, we recognized words and start writing to our sacred friends which always let them cry with joy and hope.
4---Neither we crawled on the floor nor we boast of possessing powerful and well build parents when we were mature enough to showing our strength, “I know about this which they don’t know, I have this which they only dream about, I can do this which they won’t darn to do, I like he but not “he”, she is so proud and ostentatious, they are so barbaric…..!” But they are always something which we don’t know even we think we know, always something which we only dream about, always something which hesitate in doing. Again the “he” that we liked opinion us and encourage us to go further, the “he” that we don’t liked put more effort on what they doing and envied us to go further, the “she” we cursed start changing and educate us to go further, the “they” that we think barbaric applause us and emotion us to go further.
Yes!!! To go further!
5---Life confronts parallel path when leading to the end from begin, on the way everyone experienced what they didn’t plan, but which make them grown up. The only contributor in our growth and maturity is FRIEND! In the form of sacred “friends” which we named parents, in the form of first “friends” which we named childhood buddies, in the form of second sacred “friends” which we name teachers and in the form of “he” and “she” which we named best friends. After all “friends” are the only reason why we are alive and “friends” are the only reason why PLATO declared “we are social animals”!!!
HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY!
1---This experience starts when we are born and initiated crawling with the help of our two most sacred “friends”, first they sunk in uncontrolled laugh and exclaimed with joy at our first walk on four legs with the unspecific language. “My dear child, come here, come here!” They clapped their hands with encouragement and called us with that genius smile, at that very moment we fell, again hear their beautiful beckon and we start again on our four legs, again we fell, again they called, again we fell, and again they called. In this procedure eventually we are success in ‘wandering’ around the house and ‘speaking’ in our own language which magically they understand. Gradually they start correcting our language and they can’t control when we first called them Mom and Dad.
2---Huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh sign! Wipe! cry ! “ my dear children, don’t cry, I will give you chocolate and come to receive you than we can eat ice-cream together” this ‘temptation’ cheer us up a bit and when we are distracting with the sweet tongue and laughter of other friends, they vanished in some corner with promise of getting back to us again. Other friends are there, same age and same condition, with a mark of tear on their cheeks. We strolled into a beautiful room decorated with attractive toys and pictures, instantly we forgot the experienced and start dwelling on the floor, picking things, padding toys and playing with them. Innocent mind of our friends and us open the curtain of privacy and we started showing things around. “this is mine” said us, “No! this is mine” said others, “No! if you try to take it away from me than I will called my father and he is very brave, I am sure he will beat you” said us, “I will called my father as well and brother also, they can beat your father” said others……..! echoing with noises from every direction, the same decorated room become a hut of crying babies. Eventually when we back to school gate where our sacred friends are waiting, we started complaining. They said nothing, because they know this same complain will transform into compliment at the end when we declared this and that is my friend.
3---We draw things which parents praised and teachers rejoice, but still we haven’t touch the real drawing which our friends called Alphabet, A, B, C, D, E…….! when they pampered us to write them on some ornament book with cute pencil, they don’t mind for the A which hardly has any sign of A, they hold our hands and rewrite the word, some time they bribe us with sweets, sometime threaten us with pinch and some time owed us with compliment. Accordingly our reaction arouse in the form of satisfaction, tear and smile! Similarity in them and us is we never give up, they don’t give up because they believe in us and we don’t give up because we are not allow to give up! After some months and years, we recognized words and start writing to our sacred friends which always let them cry with joy and hope.
4---Neither we crawled on the floor nor we boast of possessing powerful and well build parents when we were mature enough to showing our strength, “I know about this which they don’t know, I have this which they only dream about, I can do this which they won’t darn to do, I like he but not “he”, she is so proud and ostentatious, they are so barbaric…..!” But they are always something which we don’t know even we think we know, always something which we only dream about, always something which hesitate in doing. Again the “he” that we liked opinion us and encourage us to go further, the “he” that we don’t liked put more effort on what they doing and envied us to go further, the “she” we cursed start changing and educate us to go further, the “they” that we think barbaric applause us and emotion us to go further.
Yes!!! To go further!
5---Life confronts parallel path when leading to the end from begin, on the way everyone experienced what they didn’t plan, but which make them grown up. The only contributor in our growth and maturity is FRIEND! In the form of sacred “friends” which we named parents, in the form of first “friends” which we named childhood buddies, in the form of second sacred “friends” which we name teachers and in the form of “he” and “she” which we named best friends. After all “friends” are the only reason why we are alive and “friends” are the only reason why PLATO declared “we are social animals”!!!
HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY!
06 July, 2010
Birthday Or Backday
"MANY MANY HAPPY RETURNS OF THE DAY, MY LORD, MY LAMA, MY GURU, MY KING H. H. THE DALAI LAMA, MAY YOU LIVE MORE THAN HUNDRED YEARS WITH GREAT HEALTH TO LED US AND THIS WORLD TO PEACE AND HAPPY FUTURE" I woke up with this slogan to greet the day on 6th July 2010 which was a beautiful day. Some of my friends and other Tibetan sympathies were complaining the venue of this year's birthday celebration is mean to be far from the location where majority of Tibeten have their resident. But today is not a ordinary day, so almost all of us are certain to attend the celebration. We had our breakfast and except the young-age monks, everyone was excite about the journey they are going to take in the Bus organized by the monastery office. We were assembly in front of the the gompa shop with discussion about the estimate size and form of the celebration, one of the monk was saying that the Tibetan Settlement Office in Nepal had requested every registered monastery and institution to come up with less than two wish-written banners to livelihood the celebration. And all of them were accepting this sign is meant to be the celebration to be great success. And we believed that this is not only our duty but also responsibility of tibetan refugees in Nepal to implement every movement and ceremony related with Tibet to be unique in Nepal, because apart from Dharamsala, Nepal is the only second to that where every activity related to Tibet and Tibetan issue is carry on with great enthusiastic and success. So the legacy has to be continue and we hope so,
Suddenly one of the young monk was running passed us uttering that there is the police force present at the gate of the Monastery. Without exact comprehension of the situation we rushed to the gate and there were at least four personal of Nepal Armed Police Force. Gradually we came to know that there are also forces posted at Our nunnery, at Faika Chowk, at Boudhanath, at Chahabil, at patan, at Swayambu, at every corner of the way which lead to Jawalakel which is to be the place of celebration. Including the Nepali brothers, every one was quite confused with this reaction of Nepali government who gave permission to held the celebration with full participation of general citizen and Tibetans just one day back. Only restriction was that the Government issue statement in the newspapers to (www.thehimalayantimes.com) prohibit the participants of members of Nepali constituent Assembly to calm the ugly Chinese red government criticism. Subsequently we approach the personals and inquiry the validity of the document they released to give permission for the birthday celebration and their action which contradict to their own approval. One of the personal Told us that a group of tibetan people did held protest in front of the Chinese embassy day before birthday and consequently were arrest and put in jail. He continued in Nepali "tubai arulai hezu jullus gare ra asre paiko ne." ( your guys did protest yesterday, so today is the reaction of your strike) For a second we were not sure what to expect from the police furthermore, and at the same time we were not sure how we going to understand the situation because we have not knowledge of the protest and arrest. Our group dismiss for a while, and were lost in thought. After one hour, monks were saying that around 35 tibetans had protest in front of the Chinese embassy and lately they were claimed to be the follower of Dorje Shugden who is the controversial deity in tibetan community, who's followers are believed to be close to the Chinese government which finance them in every way to woe them for their cruelty usage. Our doubts were clear but not nearest to the satisfaction because we heard around 300 tibetans were arrest and put in jail on day main day for merely the action of participating the celebration.
As in Tibetan Proverb, "even a child who murder his own father has a reason to claim his innocence" Nepali police personal claimed to be innocence and blamed the cause back to tibetan community, but the reality will always remain behind the curtain of politics and economic. No matter the reaction of Nepali government is either compel from the Nepali parties or bullied by Chinese Government or even fuel by Shugden group. The actual circumstance suffered by the Tibetan people and its supporters was exact remind of 2008 when Nepali government crashed the protesters and were put in jail as they are the Chinese force.
EVERY TIBETAN IN NEPAL IS WONDERING IF IT IS BIRTHDAY OR BACKDAY! God bless Tibet!
Suddenly one of the young monk was running passed us uttering that there is the police force present at the gate of the Monastery. Without exact comprehension of the situation we rushed to the gate and there were at least four personal of Nepal Armed Police Force. Gradually we came to know that there are also forces posted at Our nunnery, at Faika Chowk, at Boudhanath, at Chahabil, at patan, at Swayambu, at every corner of the way which lead to Jawalakel which is to be the place of celebration. Including the Nepali brothers, every one was quite confused with this reaction of Nepali government who gave permission to held the celebration with full participation of general citizen and Tibetans just one day back. Only restriction was that the Government issue statement in the newspapers to (www.thehimalayantimes.com) prohibit the participants of members of Nepali constituent Assembly to calm the ugly Chinese red government criticism. Subsequently we approach the personals and inquiry the validity of the document they released to give permission for the birthday celebration and their action which contradict to their own approval. One of the personal Told us that a group of tibetan people did held protest in front of the Chinese embassy day before birthday and consequently were arrest and put in jail. He continued in Nepali "tubai arulai hezu jullus gare ra asre paiko ne." ( your guys did protest yesterday, so today is the reaction of your strike) For a second we were not sure what to expect from the police furthermore, and at the same time we were not sure how we going to understand the situation because we have not knowledge of the protest and arrest. Our group dismiss for a while, and were lost in thought. After one hour, monks were saying that around 35 tibetans had protest in front of the Chinese embassy and lately they were claimed to be the follower of Dorje Shugden who is the controversial deity in tibetan community, who's followers are believed to be close to the Chinese government which finance them in every way to woe them for their cruelty usage. Our doubts were clear but not nearest to the satisfaction because we heard around 300 tibetans were arrest and put in jail on day main day for merely the action of participating the celebration.
As in Tibetan Proverb, "even a child who murder his own father has a reason to claim his innocence" Nepali police personal claimed to be innocence and blamed the cause back to tibetan community, but the reality will always remain behind the curtain of politics and economic. No matter the reaction of Nepali government is either compel from the Nepali parties or bullied by Chinese Government or even fuel by Shugden group. The actual circumstance suffered by the Tibetan people and its supporters was exact remind of 2008 when Nepali government crashed the protesters and were put in jail as they are the Chinese force.
EVERY TIBETAN IN NEPAL IS WONDERING IF IT IS BIRTHDAY OR BACKDAY! God bless Tibet!
04 July, 2010
Gone with rainbows...
Whenever i think about him i can't avoid the exclamation words that he used when he met someone or something unexpectly, Last year when i went to get his bless in his room, it was not much bigger than the room i have in my university which is suitable for two beds, only difference is his room was bathroom attached. On the alter which cover one third of the rooms was placed with pictures of great Lamas and deities. Seven bowls of glass was lined on the edge of the alter to offer water, just near the alter was his bed with a reading table tag with it. he was sitting cross legs on his quite big bed and was reciting some books from Buddhist scripture. I approached him and stretch the Kadak on his reading table than was about to leave when he made one noise like "who are you?" i was not able to hear him properly as he was 94 years old and stammering. I assumed to my supposition and stay there for him to speak further, he asked me again like "who are you?" than i told him my name and he stay for few minutes contemplating on those few words like i gave him a name of a place far away in his memory. Than suddenly he made that funny but sincere exclamation. "Jho Rinpo Kerang Yinpa?" I was like "Nga Yin" but i was not sure who he mean "Kerang". (means YOU in Tibetan Language) Promptly he fingered towards the cushion that is laying on the floor and indicate me to sit with his unclear words. I sat on the cushion which was laying above the grey dragon decorated carpet and curiously watch his next move. Actually i attempted few times to get up and assist him on whatever he wants to do but he reluctantly waved me away and open the door of the cupboard with great difficulty. After few minutes (which seems few hours to me because i was sure it took great effort for him to bend and search things as he is 94 years old! and worst part is he seems like swear to not allowing my assistance.) inspection, took out a plastic bag which was filled with eatable things like biscuits, chocolates and candy, than he picked one vest from the same cupboard and stirred it into the plastic. He gradually passed that to me and said something, But i was not able to understand what he was saying though i was sure it is about the study and personality that he wants me to care and improve. I exit after giving few bows to shown my respect whether he could see it or not! I was in mix emotions after leaving his room, i was happy because he recognized me and i was sad because he gave me something. In the last thirteen years i have seen him circling around the monastery with great devotion and sincerity, in this more than one decade, i could do nothing to him but offering few bows, though i have that strong determination to assist him in whatever way after my graduation and i was optimist that the day will come when i can fulfill this dream. But how i can know this will remain dream,,,
I was with my new sister in Boudha nath who was briefing me about my family in the last more than one decade. I felt like walking on street with head reverse to back side with dim landscape. After hours we had our lunch and they were (she and her husband) determined to keep me night over there. In normal condition, i would happily accept their warm invitation but i have that nerve and anxiety which draw me back to monastery. I try to overpower it but not use, so eventually i made some excuses and went back. On my way i drop at the supermarket where my friend was working after he disrobed, he was not in his usual happy and funny mood, lately he told me that Geshe Kyachok (name of the demise monk who was 95 years old) took his last breath that after noon. I was too shock to utter a word, largely not because he is gone but because few minutes back i have that strong feeling which drew me. He is 95 years old now, for a human being or should i rather say, for a tibetan 95 is not a young age, i heard he was facing difficult to lead daily life because of his old age. And every one was rejoicing his longing.After that i promptly leave for monastery. My arrival was greet with a declaration of congregating religious gathering on his behave, and i attend the TSOK after few years in my own monastery. In fact i am not very fond of attending so, for that i have my own reason, but this time i can't keep myself away from assembly with reason. So did attend the TSOK and was relieved to felt my own inclusion in the hall. My friends were talking about haven seen of rainbows suddenly appear around the monastery and they have photos to prove their proclamation. When i asked about his status, my friends told me that he is in THUN which means post-meditation after death. In Buddhist perception we believe that great yogi and practitioners have that power to control their mind and focus on something even after scientifically they are declare dead, and he possess complete control over the situation of this meditation. We were not sure how many days he will stay on that position. We had same situation few years back who stayed on the similar meditation for more than four days and when he was cremated we found lots of relics which was enough evidence for convince others of Buddhist religious and dharma. On the next day, me with some senior colleagues attended one smaller congregation, also in that day we saw lots of different rainbows shining from here to there and there to here. People said they saw four different rainbows, but at least i saw two of them from the room where his body was kept. I had a good look on his countenance and his looks tempt me of his passed away.
Around 6pm, Our Abbot announced that he had release the post-meditation and he is ready for cremation. though it was raining lightly, we gather around the place where he was to cremate, unlike other monks, he was to cremate in the monastery ground which itself is a great honor. Something more than hundred monks were gather to arrange the stand and all the things, we run here and there to collect cushions, tables, religious clothes, ritual instruments and at the mean time i visit one more time to his room where more than ten people were about to clean him and dress him in special clothe for cremation. Around 8pm, started by Abbot, Supervisor and Geshes, more than 700 monks and nuns gather around the place, plus more than 100 foreigners who are in the monastery for retreat and meditation course. The TSOK last for five hours and it end at 1am in the morning. But all the attendants surprisingly in great form and slightest sign of tired and exhaustion is never to be seen.
I closed my eyes and visualized the moments that i was determined to have with him after my graduation and pray for his rebirth in quick succession. I am happy to inform and heard that we found relics from his ashes! "Jho rinpo kerang khabar yo?"
I was with my new sister in Boudha nath who was briefing me about my family in the last more than one decade. I felt like walking on street with head reverse to back side with dim landscape. After hours we had our lunch and they were (she and her husband) determined to keep me night over there. In normal condition, i would happily accept their warm invitation but i have that nerve and anxiety which draw me back to monastery. I try to overpower it but not use, so eventually i made some excuses and went back. On my way i drop at the supermarket where my friend was working after he disrobed, he was not in his usual happy and funny mood, lately he told me that Geshe Kyachok (name of the demise monk who was 95 years old) took his last breath that after noon. I was too shock to utter a word, largely not because he is gone but because few minutes back i have that strong feeling which drew me. He is 95 years old now, for a human being or should i rather say, for a tibetan 95 is not a young age, i heard he was facing difficult to lead daily life because of his old age. And every one was rejoicing his longing.After that i promptly leave for monastery. My arrival was greet with a declaration of congregating religious gathering on his behave, and i attend the TSOK after few years in my own monastery. In fact i am not very fond of attending so, for that i have my own reason, but this time i can't keep myself away from assembly with reason. So did attend the TSOK and was relieved to felt my own inclusion in the hall. My friends were talking about haven seen of rainbows suddenly appear around the monastery and they have photos to prove their proclamation. When i asked about his status, my friends told me that he is in THUN which means post-meditation after death. In Buddhist perception we believe that great yogi and practitioners have that power to control their mind and focus on something even after scientifically they are declare dead, and he possess complete control over the situation of this meditation. We were not sure how many days he will stay on that position. We had same situation few years back who stayed on the similar meditation for more than four days and when he was cremated we found lots of relics which was enough evidence for convince others of Buddhist religious and dharma. On the next day, me with some senior colleagues attended one smaller congregation, also in that day we saw lots of different rainbows shining from here to there and there to here. People said they saw four different rainbows, but at least i saw two of them from the room where his body was kept. I had a good look on his countenance and his looks tempt me of his passed away.
Around 6pm, Our Abbot announced that he had release the post-meditation and he is ready for cremation. though it was raining lightly, we gather around the place where he was to cremate, unlike other monks, he was to cremate in the monastery ground which itself is a great honor. Something more than hundred monks were gather to arrange the stand and all the things, we run here and there to collect cushions, tables, religious clothes, ritual instruments and at the mean time i visit one more time to his room where more than ten people were about to clean him and dress him in special clothe for cremation. Around 8pm, started by Abbot, Supervisor and Geshes, more than 700 monks and nuns gather around the place, plus more than 100 foreigners who are in the monastery for retreat and meditation course. The TSOK last for five hours and it end at 1am in the morning. But all the attendants surprisingly in great form and slightest sign of tired and exhaustion is never to be seen.
I closed my eyes and visualized the moments that i was determined to have with him after my graduation and pray for his rebirth in quick succession. I am happy to inform and heard that we found relics from his ashes! "Jho rinpo kerang khabar yo?"
30 June, 2010
When we met.
On that unexpected condition, normally i would not have leave my sister's home even someone invited me to have dinner in YAK restaurant { which is my favorite in Nepal} for the exchange of going back to monastery, because i found one new sister! Yeah,,, i can understand you will find it funny, but the real funny thing is she has been searching me for the last few years [ she told me later..] and only this year we met. That was quite amusing experience, first we talked on phone and she told me she used to be my classmate when i was child and she also brief me her reside in my home for several months when she was schooling in my hometown. But for God's sake, i remember nothing, and i confessed so with her. Despite of my rude reply, she invited me to her home on that ensued Saturday, and eventually we met after couples of phone calls and searching around the Boudha Nath. I had strong expectation, or rather called it wish [ because i don't want to embarrass myself and her as well with strange smile and glance!] that i may recognize her in the encounter after fourteen years of departure. But as to impersonalized my inner fear, i didn't recognized her! This time neither i got the nerves to ask her bio-data, nor her recognition of my appearance. So with forced smile and nervous walking, i went to her home and conversed. She asked me lots of things about my family and also describe some information which are related to the current condition of my family, and i didn't find it astonish when she show me the talent of having more information about my family than myself! Gradually i eased myself and had lunch which was carefully serve to me with her husband who frequently asked me to sit on bed with stretch legs because he thinks that will make reduction in my trembling body, At the beginning i refuse, but later i surrender to his adamant and found he was right. He is very simple in his reaction towards the new stranger his wife picked up from somewhere (which means me!) his personality gave me two options to judge him which are either he is a simple and kind person, or he is a showy and ostentatious person who is expert in concealing the dark side behind the artificial smile. On which side my assumption shine is matter of time and mystery because i am sure at least i have to spend few years before i decide what he is, for now. I like my new sister and her family.
Well, i spent my day until it is 6pm in the evening than went back to the place where i came. It is was rather simultaneity than shyness when i leave her place. I got that innate feeling which compel me to race back, and later i found what was the cause, which is to be reveal in another composition heh heh.
Well, i spent my day until it is 6pm in the evening than went back to the place where i came. It is was rather simultaneity than shyness when i leave her place. I got that innate feeling which compel me to race back, and later i found what was the cause, which is to be reveal in another composition heh heh.
21 June, 2010
Journey with B-2
I am settle in one place few days ago and in peace if you ask me. But the memory of the journey with B is recapping in my sight that it is difficult to have the usual whim in my mind. { not the like the thing you imagine now...} The unforgettable moments of traveling in train, bus, tempo, rickshow and on my own foot is frequently flashing like a bright light, off which burglar try to avoid. Its action is what we called Back Back and Back without slightest sign of Backward.
13 June, 2010
K.K part-6
Once upon a time i told her to log on Twitter which is contemporaly a growing social web. And as a good girl, she listened and did open one account but of course as usual with an question. What is the use of this web? Well, i couldn't described her head to toe because i was new to the web and also really don't know how to start the description. But now she is here with complete comprehension of the said web. Her previous account was lost or let lost as that was created under my persuation, contrary to this, voluntary is the foundation of her second entry to this social web, so i extremely hopes she will keep on updating her comments.
When we said social, we means the congregation of people and surrounding which plays essential role in the life of every individual, hence it is our responsibility to explore it with complete honest comments splout from our mind. Also it is important to depict our own days of life and happenings to the people who cares and take tremendous interset in us. For me that is the sole purpose of admitting in this kind of social network. Maybe this is the reason i wasn't able to share with you at the beginning. Well,,,Whatsoever, i am happy happy happy to see you here and please let me remind you onething, plesae do continues with updating as i don't want to see your account which tag with "last update one year ago"!!! hehehe
When we said social, we means the congregation of people and surrounding which plays essential role in the life of every individual, hence it is our responsibility to explore it with complete honest comments splout from our mind. Also it is important to depict our own days of life and happenings to the people who cares and take tremendous interset in us. For me that is the sole purpose of admitting in this kind of social network. Maybe this is the reason i wasn't able to share with you at the beginning. Well,,,Whatsoever, i am happy happy happy to see you here and please let me remind you onething, plesae do continues with updating as i don't want to see your account which tag with "last update one year ago"!!! hehehe
09 June, 2010
A Good Shock!
I have been pursuing the news channels from my mobile since i heard the news of one girl who is participating in MISS TIBET contest! To tell the truth, it wasn't a shock for me because i think she is capable of doing such things. It is true we have not share even a light moment of tea-chat together though studying in same campus, but i had quite knowledge of her courage and capability as we had only around 400 students in the campus, and it is easy to keep your ears open hehe! I heard she is independent and confident with her behaviour and activities which is a good and necessary equippment for success in life. and she is also beautiful. After i found she is crowned MISS TIBET, i wrote a congratulate message on the web and proudly told one guy who is coach mate on my train back to Delhi. I was so happy though i don't know her personally because she is from my campus and most importantly she proved herself under all that scandal and hindrence. She deserved it !!!
It might be true life is God gift, and it is true life is greatest present from our parents but without identification of life is not life, i always think how many people in the world might know us, for instance about me,, Um,,,,,,,around two hundred or may be thousand but not more that this figure, than just count how many people in this world. Twelve billion and counting!!! Wow! Interseting haina? You might misunderstood me, i am not a hunger of fame or wealth. Carving mark in our life which can be a source of identification after our death is not deals merely with fame or name. It is about making life meaningful. Than of course, what does mean by meaningful? From my perception, meaningful means useful, which means cultivating ray to sight the others than sole. To do that, we can't confine ourself in one room or may be in one family and get satistified with it, it is about confronting challenges and conquering them. To do that we need courage and confident. We Buddhists always talk about altruism and compassion etc, but mostly we care only about ourself and surrounding when it comes to action. I don't agree that the motivation we have for all sentient being is forged and fake, it is genuie but only thing which curtain this great thought from expossion is lake of confidence and courage.
It might be true life is God gift, and it is true life is greatest present from our parents but without identification of life is not life, i always think how many people in the world might know us, for instance about me,, Um,,,,,,,around two hundred or may be thousand but not more that this figure, than just count how many people in this world. Twelve billion and counting!!! Wow! Interseting haina? You might misunderstood me, i am not a hunger of fame or wealth. Carving mark in our life which can be a source of identification after our death is not deals merely with fame or name. It is about making life meaningful. Than of course, what does mean by meaningful? From my perception, meaningful means useful, which means cultivating ray to sight the others than sole. To do that, we can't confine ourself in one room or may be in one family and get satistified with it, it is about confronting challenges and conquering them. To do that we need courage and confident. We Buddhists always talk about altruism and compassion etc, but mostly we care only about ourself and surrounding when it comes to action. I don't agree that the motivation we have for all sentient being is forged and fake, it is genuie but only thing which curtain this great thought from expossion is lake of confidence and courage.
05 June, 2010
Journey with B---1
Do you remember i talk about this B stuff? this followed me even in the web! just now it came and left with enough amount of astonishement and frustration to fill up the whole world. Anyway better complete the purpose of my visiting to net than writing about this B, otherwise i don't know where will finished up!!!
on 23th, May, 2010 MY FRIEND and me were extremely exciting about the maidan trip to the new place we never visit before, he was telling me "hey you packed up only things that is indispensible for our journey because we don't want large burden to be our problem for the traveling", and i was never to be different with his opinion, so we end our equippment with small handbag which consist of few changing clothes and other stuffs. Than we had a large lunch and request one of my friend to baked some special cakes for the ride because i heard the food on train is i-have-to-eat-otherwise-i-would-die type of provision. We collect some necessary information from the desident of particular places where we were supposed to visit, though i must tell you that is against my believe and spirit because i like to visit the place without precede knowledge as i like surprises and in a way adventure too but of course for a limit. Anyway we were all set and ready to go, just waiting for a signal which says "here you go,,," Eventually it showed up. Not on our clock or by friends but on Notice Board! which is bad enough for us to give up the trip and leave for our home.
BAD NEWS!!! this was what written on the notice board followed up by the notification of cancelling of our train for that night. We cursed for more than an hour and were busy with asking instructions from the friends, they were like "Oh my God, how that happens,, we heard of getting the train late for an hour or maybe twelve hours but never heard of cancel, must be something wrong" So we once again stick on searching information about the cancelled train and phone one of the agence to confirm it. The Agency Guy said " Aisa to nahin hota legen apka train cancelled ho gaya," So it was confirmed and we were helpless for a moment, than we got an idea and looked for the next travellers and we got nearly nill. Eventually me and my friend decide to travel on Waiting List Ticket on 25th of the same month, which is not better than CHALU if we didn't get seat on the train. A begger on train in a way! So we travelled on the next day and end up with seats for both of us. About the rest it is to be followed up in my next compositions.
It was the beginning of our long trip to Southern state of India which contains of sacred places and institutions which dominated great courtesy and station in the heart of the Bhuddist and specially in the heart of tibetans and himalayan people. My trip was in a way PILGRIMAGE, YESSSSS only in a way, because in another way my trip was target to be in the form of exploration the tibetan camps situated in that particular area. But of course if some one asked us why you are going for the this long and diffcult and cosy trip? than we promptly replied for PILGRIMAGE!!! But as you know, not entirely!!! So we later discussed on the train, maybe that was the reason of cancellation of our train because we didn't disclose the entire purpose to the ones who asked us. Anyway so and so,,, but most infortant thing was we learn something, no matter it is complimentary in the nature or condemnable, it is good to disclose the right thing. Well,,, that was it! We travel and travel,,,,,,,,,still travalling now.
on 23th, May, 2010 MY FRIEND and me were extremely exciting about the maidan trip to the new place we never visit before, he was telling me "hey you packed up only things that is indispensible for our journey because we don't want large burden to be our problem for the traveling", and i was never to be different with his opinion, so we end our equippment with small handbag which consist of few changing clothes and other stuffs. Than we had a large lunch and request one of my friend to baked some special cakes for the ride because i heard the food on train is i-have-to-eat-otherwise-i-would-die type of provision. We collect some necessary information from the desident of particular places where we were supposed to visit, though i must tell you that is against my believe and spirit because i like to visit the place without precede knowledge as i like surprises and in a way adventure too but of course for a limit. Anyway we were all set and ready to go, just waiting for a signal which says "here you go,,," Eventually it showed up. Not on our clock or by friends but on Notice Board! which is bad enough for us to give up the trip and leave for our home.
BAD NEWS!!! this was what written on the notice board followed up by the notification of cancelling of our train for that night. We cursed for more than an hour and were busy with asking instructions from the friends, they were like "Oh my God, how that happens,, we heard of getting the train late for an hour or maybe twelve hours but never heard of cancel, must be something wrong" So we once again stick on searching information about the cancelled train and phone one of the agence to confirm it. The Agency Guy said " Aisa to nahin hota legen apka train cancelled ho gaya," So it was confirmed and we were helpless for a moment, than we got an idea and looked for the next travellers and we got nearly nill. Eventually me and my friend decide to travel on Waiting List Ticket on 25th of the same month, which is not better than CHALU if we didn't get seat on the train. A begger on train in a way! So we travelled on the next day and end up with seats for both of us. About the rest it is to be followed up in my next compositions.
It was the beginning of our long trip to Southern state of India which contains of sacred places and institutions which dominated great courtesy and station in the heart of the Bhuddist and specially in the heart of tibetans and himalayan people. My trip was in a way PILGRIMAGE, YESSSSS only in a way, because in another way my trip was target to be in the form of exploration the tibetan camps situated in that particular area. But of course if some one asked us why you are going for the this long and diffcult and cosy trip? than we promptly replied for PILGRIMAGE!!! But as you know, not entirely!!! So we later discussed on the train, maybe that was the reason of cancellation of our train because we didn't disclose the entire purpose to the ones who asked us. Anyway so and so,,, but most infortant thing was we learn something, no matter it is complimentary in the nature or condemnable, it is good to disclose the right thing. Well,,, that was it! We travel and travel,,,,,,,,,still travalling now.
02 June, 2010
Journey with B
B is not a soul nor a material, it is something but nothing physical !! I have been traveling with this for such longtime that now i felt i had enough of it,,, it is our nature to said 'get lost' or 'get the @##$ out of here' when something really disturbing us. But i can't use that reaction with this because it is not in my control! oh holy shit! why? why this B is always pursuing me when i had nothing to do with it, it chased me on my first jounrney to South India, it prevented me on the station, it delay me on my ride to bus in Banglore, it confined me in mysore for several hours, it posponed my departure,, it... oh once again holy shit!!! this B list is endless
whenever we do something, it accompany by the tag of 'first time', like you are reading this composition for the first time than it will become routine and second time to some one else than some one else, in that circulation the magic and embarassment of first time became second time than 'lot' time and gradually we know it is good to have first time in things because no matter who you are ? no matter what kind of umimaginable power you have,, it is nature and inevitable to come cross with 'first time'... so as i did....! At the first time, i thought i learn something, than at second time i thought i taught something to myself, at third time, i thought i educated myself with something specail,,,,, than at fourth time i thought i had enough of it.@#$%&*&$#@!@@##$##$#$!!!!!!
If be a reasonable man and project reasonable figures from our mind than it becomes reasonable, but always and always with limitation, oh i remember some body, i mean you,,,, always you,,, you always had some limitation for me, if i did this and than this,, oh stop you crossed the limitation! if i did that than that,, oh stop you crossed the limitation!well,, hello princess, this time on my journey to south i also came to know the bestow of frustration when soemthing or some body cross the limitation! it is bitter in taste!!!
Anyway today is the only day i have few hours with me [ because i run to this place without telling anything,,, oh yeah i neglect the phone ringing hehe ] , so i came here drop some words,, actually any words from my hands and this is here-i-go type of composition,,,,, so if there is any mistake, give that to me and dare you to take it away !!!
ohhh i forget i am trying to write a serial of "B" compositions from now if i got time and brain, but tell you and tell me onething, this is not a promise,,, so be it and be with it !!! Andddddd i may not get time pre-drafting time, so i will write on the spot and if you also find mistakes and formation in the sentences than please sent them to me on any medium you find........ God Bless U and ME for Everthing we do,,,
whenever we do something, it accompany by the tag of 'first time', like you are reading this composition for the first time than it will become routine and second time to some one else than some one else, in that circulation the magic and embarassment of first time became second time than 'lot' time and gradually we know it is good to have first time in things because no matter who you are ? no matter what kind of umimaginable power you have,, it is nature and inevitable to come cross with 'first time'... so as i did....! At the first time, i thought i learn something, than at second time i thought i taught something to myself, at third time, i thought i educated myself with something specail,,,,, than at fourth time i thought i had enough of it.@#$%&*&$#@!@@##$##$#$!!!!!!
If be a reasonable man and project reasonable figures from our mind than it becomes reasonable, but always and always with limitation, oh i remember some body, i mean you,,,, always you,,, you always had some limitation for me, if i did this and than this,, oh stop you crossed the limitation! if i did that than that,, oh stop you crossed the limitation!well,, hello princess, this time on my journey to south i also came to know the bestow of frustration when soemthing or some body cross the limitation! it is bitter in taste!!!
Anyway today is the only day i have few hours with me [ because i run to this place without telling anything,,, oh yeah i neglect the phone ringing hehe ] , so i came here drop some words,, actually any words from my hands and this is here-i-go type of composition,,,,, so if there is any mistake, give that to me and dare you to take it away !!!
ohhh i forget i am trying to write a serial of "B" compositions from now if i got time and brain, but tell you and tell me onething, this is not a promise,,, so be it and be with it !!! Andddddd i may not get time pre-drafting time, so i will write on the spot and if you also find mistakes and formation in the sentences than please sent them to me on any medium you find........ God Bless U and ME for Everthing we do,,,
28 May, 2010
Beginning with Blocker!
me and my friend were exciting with a confirmed ticket for train transfortation up to our destination which is beyond our wildest imagination because we have not been to that place for whole of our life, so with quite lots of information from my friends we went were preparing to ride on the train that was
18 April, 2010
K.K-Part 5
Today I like [better say have to!] to write a different composition under same name which has been ascend from last four stages, in fact it is out of anticipation that I am craving my words on this because I felt difficult to say NO whenever someone requested, specially the dear ones like K.K. In another treatise of my life, I think it is important to give your best shot to fulfill other’s request as this is how we human beings are differ from other living beings and this is how we happily get reciprocation when we are in needed. Consequently after much resistant, I agreed to write on the topic that is chosen by her which is also in a way reciprocity for the task I gave her in the form of imposition. And the topic she gave me is something like ‘ your other friends’, well, let’s see how much I can pen down upon it, you might wondering why I am saying ‘ how much I can pen down upon it’, but truth is there are not that much I can write about it. Anyway here we go.
For your information K.K, I am a man of few friends, I might be merry in a way, or I might be frank in a way, or I should say I may call others friends, but when it really counts, I am a very discriminatory person to choose friends. I accept my friends as my friends because they matched the description I have about friend. Now wait a minute, you don’t have to panic or exclaim, and when I say the ‘description’ I mean the meaning of friend according to my mind. In life we met lots of people who show us lots of way and who intentionally or unintentionally teach us lots of lessons which became consultative mirror when we have to take decision on our own. Similarly in this short journey of my life [I am not dead now, so I may tell you the other story after I live them, wait!] I met quite a few bunch of people who hypocritically act as my friend, they drink with me, they went on excursion with me, they laugh with me but they never shows up when I am crying, when I am in deep shit, they just walk away from me like they never know me, like they never saw me before. And at this very moment I engraved the meaning of friend THE ONE WHO HAS KIND HEART WITH UNCONTITIONAL MIND.
I will tell you one thing K.K, you might find it funny. If I survey over the list of my friends [which is quite short] I find quite a lots of girl’s name. It is not that I am a womanizer or something, but I find the girl more affable than boys. Actually it is the prime reason why I don’t believe the saying of friendship is not cup of tea between two different genders. Though it is true every love relation starts with friendship but it is not true every friendship ends in love relation. Anyway when I was in teenage I have four good friends with whom I spent eight years of my childhood, we eat together, we school together, we picnic together and even we pee together. [CAUTION! They are all boys!] That moments are the peak of my life till now which is exposing itself more clearly and extensively with the increase of my age. If you ask me, I miss them lot! Than after my dramatic escape to another country, with another atmosphere and living people, I found a friend in the form of teacher who is still very much in touch with me who not only guides me but helps me in every way. There is another teacher of mine [also friend because we have lots of ‘affectionate’ fights hehe!] who is now residing in the Southern side of India, he accept me as his brother. Than I have two colleagues with whom I spent almost ten years together in one location [though we are scatter now.] without any boundary of yours and mines. I also have one girl friend [not girlfriend!] who shares everything with me and who knows almost everything about me, she even proposed to me, not to become my girlfriend! but to become my sister, I accepted and now we are known as brother and sister. There is another girl who helps me lot, though I have to confess I have not really accept her as my friend, but she helps me in different ways and I am debt to her kindness.
Eventually I made another shipment of my location and reached this place. If you ask me how many friends I have in this dormitory, I have two, actually three but I kind of delete his name from my list recently because I found he is not matched with the meaning of friend to my perspective. Among the above two friends, one is girl, with whom I have been friend for almost four years. Our confrontation is quite tragedy [why? Tell you later,,,] we carry on our relation with lots of hindrances and accusation but happy to say we are still friends. Then I met this girl, about whom I found something unusual. At the very first sight of that girl, I convince myself that she is a good girl with kind heart and unconditional mind. We talk, we talk and we talk then became friends. Similar to her proclamation, it takes quite a longtime for another person to become my friend but we became friend in short period, almost in three months. She is always declaring that I will regret of included her into my friend list because of her invisible black deeds [though I have not notice even once till now and never heard of] which she predicted to be seen by me. No matter what, I have one thing to say, despite of certainty of continuation of our relation, after being in this university, it is one of best and most beautiful gift I got. Thank you. Thank you K.K.
For your information K.K, I am a man of few friends, I might be merry in a way, or I might be frank in a way, or I should say I may call others friends, but when it really counts, I am a very discriminatory person to choose friends. I accept my friends as my friends because they matched the description I have about friend. Now wait a minute, you don’t have to panic or exclaim, and when I say the ‘description’ I mean the meaning of friend according to my mind. In life we met lots of people who show us lots of way and who intentionally or unintentionally teach us lots of lessons which became consultative mirror when we have to take decision on our own. Similarly in this short journey of my life [I am not dead now, so I may tell you the other story after I live them, wait!] I met quite a few bunch of people who hypocritically act as my friend, they drink with me, they went on excursion with me, they laugh with me but they never shows up when I am crying, when I am in deep shit, they just walk away from me like they never know me, like they never saw me before. And at this very moment I engraved the meaning of friend THE ONE WHO HAS KIND HEART WITH UNCONTITIONAL MIND.
I will tell you one thing K.K, you might find it funny. If I survey over the list of my friends [which is quite short] I find quite a lots of girl’s name. It is not that I am a womanizer or something, but I find the girl more affable than boys. Actually it is the prime reason why I don’t believe the saying of friendship is not cup of tea between two different genders. Though it is true every love relation starts with friendship but it is not true every friendship ends in love relation. Anyway when I was in teenage I have four good friends with whom I spent eight years of my childhood, we eat together, we school together, we picnic together and even we pee together. [CAUTION! They are all boys!] That moments are the peak of my life till now which is exposing itself more clearly and extensively with the increase of my age. If you ask me, I miss them lot! Than after my dramatic escape to another country, with another atmosphere and living people, I found a friend in the form of teacher who is still very much in touch with me who not only guides me but helps me in every way. There is another teacher of mine [also friend because we have lots of ‘affectionate’ fights hehe!] who is now residing in the Southern side of India, he accept me as his brother. Than I have two colleagues with whom I spent almost ten years together in one location [though we are scatter now.] without any boundary of yours and mines. I also have one girl friend [not girlfriend!] who shares everything with me and who knows almost everything about me, she even proposed to me, not to become my girlfriend! but to become my sister, I accepted and now we are known as brother and sister. There is another girl who helps me lot, though I have to confess I have not really accept her as my friend, but she helps me in different ways and I am debt to her kindness.
Eventually I made another shipment of my location and reached this place. If you ask me how many friends I have in this dormitory, I have two, actually three but I kind of delete his name from my list recently because I found he is not matched with the meaning of friend to my perspective. Among the above two friends, one is girl, with whom I have been friend for almost four years. Our confrontation is quite tragedy [why? Tell you later,,,] we carry on our relation with lots of hindrances and accusation but happy to say we are still friends. Then I met this girl, about whom I found something unusual. At the very first sight of that girl, I convince myself that she is a good girl with kind heart and unconditional mind. We talk, we talk and we talk then became friends. Similar to her proclamation, it takes quite a longtime for another person to become my friend but we became friend in short period, almost in three months. She is always declaring that I will regret of included her into my friend list because of her invisible black deeds [though I have not notice even once till now and never heard of] which she predicted to be seen by me. No matter what, I have one thing to say, despite of certainty of continuation of our relation, after being in this university, it is one of best and most beautiful gift I got. Thank you. Thank you K.K.
30 March, 2010
The factor!
Here i am glancing over my blog after few weeks. I really wish and want to have a solid reason of my absent, but tell the truth, i have nothing! In fact it is my first time after written the last composition 'kk-part4' that i am penning down few words on my blog. If you ask me why didn't you write? you didn't find topic? NO!!! i do, i had note down several topics on which i think i can write some of my individual observation and suggestion which might culminate the state of my mind for a extend limitation. Still i didn't write! Than some may ask, you didn't get enough time, right? Again NO!!! i got time, i got so much that recently i finished a movie which has around 31 episodes, still i didn't write! If i asked myself, you didn't finish the necessary research which are indispensible for complete the articles? Umm,,, NO!! i can do it, if i simultaneously want to write something, than no matter what kind of path i have to take, what kind of risk i have to confront, i can do that much quicker than most of other people. You might find me aggressive, but i believe this is one of the key in life which get us success. Whatsoever i got everything which is necessary to write few words in my blog. Than everyone may wondering, why still there is no composition for the last few weeks? I don't know!!!
Today i looked at the date and it is 30 March 2010 which vacuumed one and half month since i publish my last composition. Than why so long? Let me tell you onething though i still not sure why i didn't write, We always wants to have delicious food [specially me, i am a heavy consumer,,,] but we can't fulfil that aspiration only by possessing enough ingredient and recipe, we need cook to cook it! Samething here, though i have almost all materials to write an article, i don't have cook! That person who can be my cook, who can cook the 'food' and make me write! Yeah anybody may said.. than why your writing now? I don't know? but what i know is that, cook is smiling at me currently and i am happy for that person because that COOK makes me happy and for best things is, moody to write few words! Thanks.
SEE YOU SOON { i wrote this article on the spot without any correction or preparation, so if you readers find anything wrong, kindly your free to comment! God bless u all }
Today i looked at the date and it is 30 March 2010 which vacuumed one and half month since i publish my last composition. Than why so long? Let me tell you onething though i still not sure why i didn't write, We always wants to have delicious food [specially me, i am a heavy consumer,,,] but we can't fulfil that aspiration only by possessing enough ingredient and recipe, we need cook to cook it! Samething here, though i have almost all materials to write an article, i don't have cook! That person who can be my cook, who can cook the 'food' and make me write! Yeah anybody may said.. than why your writing now? I don't know? but what i know is that, cook is smiling at me currently and i am happy for that person because that COOK makes me happy and for best things is, moody to write few words! Thanks.
SEE YOU SOON { i wrote this article on the spot without any correction or preparation, so if you readers find anything wrong, kindly your free to comment! God bless u all }
15 February, 2010
K.K part-4
In the galaxy of souls and in the configuration of variety society, everyone, every being choose their own path which is acceptable for them and suitable for their capability though the domination of titling ‘LIFE’ is inevitable to shade them all. Embedded with this universal phenomenon, coherently everyone gives their own rational explanation to life based on the experience they got which are partly organized and partly gifted by the invisible force. Consequently the diversity of characteristics actualized and confirmed. Paced with this reality, we describe what this is and what that is!
I had the same supposition for every topic that related to my surviving, the most touchable and sensible are the things that happened to me. For instance, the last week of January 2010 had curve invincible but unforgettable impact on my life that is hard to forget and forge. In that duration I lost some of the things that I regard as important components for the continuation of breathing. Squeezed between the exhale and inhale of my breath, I damaged my phone at the very first place than my laptop and lastly a relation which was very nice alms of God so far.
If you asked me I must not call it ‘damaged’; actually we purified it, right? But then I think about this purification and it made me sick. Tell me which stuff needs purification? The one which is not correct or perfect? If that is so than I felt sick when I think that our relation needs this purification. Of course I am not blaming on her or her every tiny reaction. But as I wrote in the broken message I sent her, it is me, who is responsible for all that chaos because of my childish thoughts and imaginations. At some place of that situation I consider to snap this relation for all. So I kind of imagine it and you know what? I can’t stand it; I mean I was quite attached to our relation or excessive attachment is exist as she was saying in the message. Result of that assumption, I figured out a second way and that was to keep the academic relationship with her. But if I tell you truth, even then I would not have been happy and peace as you can see it very well from my reaction and complexion in the class! This incident gave me lots of time and thing to think about. Subsequently I find out why I am feeling so and acting so, than most of all, I drilled out the limitation of this relation and boundary of my attachment. Affirmation with certain circumstance, now I am quite sure where I am and where I should be in the future. Currently we returned back to our relation and we are ok now. And I thank God for this remedial as I percept this relation with great veneration.
But if she read it, she must be wondering than why I am still writing about the past? Striving against the advice she gave me which was to forget the past and live for now or future. Well, the purpose of writing this composition is to assured that I was not rotten in my intension and activation at the first place. The other reason for it is to prove that she was not the factor for any of my situations whether it is worth of rejoice or field of disgraceful. When I retrospect over the events, I felt kind of shy, you won’t believe me but it is true. For a man or adulthood, concealment of his inner emotional development at any moment is use as measurement to rate the pulpit of gentleman and dignity. But I lost it; I mean I just expose the actual condition of my heart at the next instant when she told me about the limitation she was supposed to apply in our relation. Such a full of shit is me! But that’s me; I can’t hide any merged impulsion which I prefer to expose in unimaginable acceleration than covered it under any pretension. She really won my heart with her calmness and strength of apprehension. She reacts like nothing is happen and greets me with that innocent smile like she didn’t notice my moody-ugly expression. Really she was so strong, I can’t point out what exactly she felt inside but from her countenance, she was perfect and gentle, just like a perfect model of LADY! Thank you very much for this. She taught me one of the most important lesson in life, how to bear the burden of suppression! If she remembers, I enlist a category of things that she taught me? Now I want her to add this in that list and put it at the very first place.
Anticipation of reciprocation in relation, especially in friendship relation is last thing that is require, so I don’t want her to write about me in the posts that she would publish in her blog, neither I think it is necessary. Because I am quite sure what is she going to write, ‘Thank you’ ‘Thank you’ ‘Thank you and Thank you’! Hehehe ! And other reason is if she write than I would felt like she is compensating for the assist that I try to give her. So don’t embrace the trouble of writing words for me looo. But she can’t withdraw the permission she gave me because of this statement I made now, the permission which was to allow me to write about her.
As I used to say, if we follow our heart with certain investigation, that decision won’t deceive us at any cost, nor you will have the reason to regret for it. Accordingly I respect every decision that she took and I respect it not because merely I am kind of craze about her or kind of pampering her but because I know she follows her heart most of the time. Though I want to remind her, it is your life that you have to lead and finish, neither this society nor any other people will live it for you. At least this is what I believe and till this moment I hardly reverse with my assumption.
I can’t prophecy what will happen in the future, we may remain friends or we may become strangers. Anything happens on this tiny planet! But I just want to make sure that her relation will remain one of the few relations that I will thank to God when I take my last breath.
You step here, and I step there,
They pace now, and we pace later,
No matter what!
The parallel leads to the same destination,
Though we differentiate the imprints.
Yes! Though we,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
So,,,,,,,Let’s live it,
Happily ever and ever again,
Happily!!!
Alas! Start with this new year……………
HAPPY LOSAR-2137
I had the same supposition for every topic that related to my surviving, the most touchable and sensible are the things that happened to me. For instance, the last week of January 2010 had curve invincible but unforgettable impact on my life that is hard to forget and forge. In that duration I lost some of the things that I regard as important components for the continuation of breathing. Squeezed between the exhale and inhale of my breath, I damaged my phone at the very first place than my laptop and lastly a relation which was very nice alms of God so far.
If you asked me I must not call it ‘damaged’; actually we purified it, right? But then I think about this purification and it made me sick. Tell me which stuff needs purification? The one which is not correct or perfect? If that is so than I felt sick when I think that our relation needs this purification. Of course I am not blaming on her or her every tiny reaction. But as I wrote in the broken message I sent her, it is me, who is responsible for all that chaos because of my childish thoughts and imaginations. At some place of that situation I consider to snap this relation for all. So I kind of imagine it and you know what? I can’t stand it; I mean I was quite attached to our relation or excessive attachment is exist as she was saying in the message. Result of that assumption, I figured out a second way and that was to keep the academic relationship with her. But if I tell you truth, even then I would not have been happy and peace as you can see it very well from my reaction and complexion in the class! This incident gave me lots of time and thing to think about. Subsequently I find out why I am feeling so and acting so, than most of all, I drilled out the limitation of this relation and boundary of my attachment. Affirmation with certain circumstance, now I am quite sure where I am and where I should be in the future. Currently we returned back to our relation and we are ok now. And I thank God for this remedial as I percept this relation with great veneration.
But if she read it, she must be wondering than why I am still writing about the past? Striving against the advice she gave me which was to forget the past and live for now or future. Well, the purpose of writing this composition is to assured that I was not rotten in my intension and activation at the first place. The other reason for it is to prove that she was not the factor for any of my situations whether it is worth of rejoice or field of disgraceful. When I retrospect over the events, I felt kind of shy, you won’t believe me but it is true. For a man or adulthood, concealment of his inner emotional development at any moment is use as measurement to rate the pulpit of gentleman and dignity. But I lost it; I mean I just expose the actual condition of my heart at the next instant when she told me about the limitation she was supposed to apply in our relation. Such a full of shit is me! But that’s me; I can’t hide any merged impulsion which I prefer to expose in unimaginable acceleration than covered it under any pretension. She really won my heart with her calmness and strength of apprehension. She reacts like nothing is happen and greets me with that innocent smile like she didn’t notice my moody-ugly expression. Really she was so strong, I can’t point out what exactly she felt inside but from her countenance, she was perfect and gentle, just like a perfect model of LADY! Thank you very much for this. She taught me one of the most important lesson in life, how to bear the burden of suppression! If she remembers, I enlist a category of things that she taught me? Now I want her to add this in that list and put it at the very first place.
Anticipation of reciprocation in relation, especially in friendship relation is last thing that is require, so I don’t want her to write about me in the posts that she would publish in her blog, neither I think it is necessary. Because I am quite sure what is she going to write, ‘Thank you’ ‘Thank you’ ‘Thank you and Thank you’! Hehehe ! And other reason is if she write than I would felt like she is compensating for the assist that I try to give her. So don’t embrace the trouble of writing words for me looo. But she can’t withdraw the permission she gave me because of this statement I made now, the permission which was to allow me to write about her.
As I used to say, if we follow our heart with certain investigation, that decision won’t deceive us at any cost, nor you will have the reason to regret for it. Accordingly I respect every decision that she took and I respect it not because merely I am kind of craze about her or kind of pampering her but because I know she follows her heart most of the time. Though I want to remind her, it is your life that you have to lead and finish, neither this society nor any other people will live it for you. At least this is what I believe and till this moment I hardly reverse with my assumption.
I can’t prophecy what will happen in the future, we may remain friends or we may become strangers. Anything happens on this tiny planet! But I just want to make sure that her relation will remain one of the few relations that I will thank to God when I take my last breath.
You step here, and I step there,
They pace now, and we pace later,
No matter what!
The parallel leads to the same destination,
Though we differentiate the imprints.
Yes! Though we,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
So,,,,,,,Let’s live it,
Happily ever and ever again,
Happily!!!
Alas! Start with this new year……………
HAPPY LOSAR-2137
23 January, 2010
[Idiots!!! who?]
I am a man of interest and observations, about entertainment. I am loving it!!! But of the impulsive consequences, I have my own boundary which I draw with clear cognition and experiments. For the last few days I have been following the conspiracy argument between two well-known individuals of Indian society related to a superhit movie called 3idiots. To think carefully it is not really a destructing quarrel caused by significant reason, it is only about a misplacement of name of an important character that has got big contribution in the success of the movie. Primarily this movie was based on the book authored by a prominent novelist called Chetan Bhagat in India, after the completion of the movie; novelist’s name was attached at the end of the movie rather than in the beginning as usual. Well, word war starts then, novelist accused the film crew of neglecting him even the movie is 75% based on his book, all other leading components of the movie [including the lead actor who has vast fan in the film industry] blamed the novelist of being a publicity hunter though the movie was only 2% or 3% based on the book. Above all that arrowing words, the audience who gone through both book and movie clarified the movie was based at least 60% on the book and they consider the novelist deserve better position in the credit of the success movie. A columnist of Hindustan Times newspaper confirmed in a single word by saying it is matter of grace with example of the last sensational movie slumdog millionaire where the director mentioned few names of the persons [who’s name were not include in the list of the film crew] in his presentation when he received the Oscar awards. The columnist declared the crew of slumdog millionaire acting with grace and crew of 3idiots acting without grace.
I neither have a single word to ratify them nor an average percentage to measure them, but this incident reminded me some events that took place in the past, though there are not really about movie, there are very much related to our observation, our thinking and at last our life. The invasion of Iraq by American military force, the unconditional confinement of democratic activity Sun Kyin Moon by the Myanmar junda government, the bloody massacre of Nepal Royal family by unconfirmed son of the same king, the mass killing and genocide in the Xinjiang province of China and Tibet by the communist government of china, the brutal slaughter of thousands of civilians in Sri Langa during the conflict between governmental force and ethnic military LTTE, you name few! Though the above entire episodes came out in variety form, but the compliment and felicitation always goes to the one which is stronger. The remaining ‘observers’ didn’t paid necessary attention to the causes of the events, they blindly believed on the accusation and statements of the winner. But in many case, the saying of the victorious don’t matched with the paying of casualty by the people of particular episode, in some incidents people have to sheltered both action and accusation. Similar to the argument I was talking about in the initiative phrase of this article, they act something but doing something else.
But the greatest cause of this degradation and devastation of humanity, ethnic and reality is us, we, the idiots! We raised our voice to their proclamation but we didn’t raise our hands to their domination and declaration. We don’t punctuated our self to give credits for the gallants who deserves it, we couldn’t point out the culprits who were responsible to all the cruelty results of all actions, we won’t like to stand up with heroic deeds and instinct to protect the ethical values of human being because we like power, we like money, we are too narrow-mind and we always like to anticipate someone else to do it rather than acting it by ourselves. So I am always wondering who are the idiots???
I neither have a single word to ratify them nor an average percentage to measure them, but this incident reminded me some events that took place in the past, though there are not really about movie, there are very much related to our observation, our thinking and at last our life. The invasion of Iraq by American military force, the unconditional confinement of democratic activity Sun Kyin Moon by the Myanmar junda government, the bloody massacre of Nepal Royal family by unconfirmed son of the same king, the mass killing and genocide in the Xinjiang province of China and Tibet by the communist government of china, the brutal slaughter of thousands of civilians in Sri Langa during the conflict between governmental force and ethnic military LTTE, you name few! Though the above entire episodes came out in variety form, but the compliment and felicitation always goes to the one which is stronger. The remaining ‘observers’ didn’t paid necessary attention to the causes of the events, they blindly believed on the accusation and statements of the winner. But in many case, the saying of the victorious don’t matched with the paying of casualty by the people of particular episode, in some incidents people have to sheltered both action and accusation. Similar to the argument I was talking about in the initiative phrase of this article, they act something but doing something else.
But the greatest cause of this degradation and devastation of humanity, ethnic and reality is us, we, the idiots! We raised our voice to their proclamation but we didn’t raise our hands to their domination and declaration. We don’t punctuated our self to give credits for the gallants who deserves it, we couldn’t point out the culprits who were responsible to all the cruelty results of all actions, we won’t like to stand up with heroic deeds and instinct to protect the ethical values of human being because we like power, we like money, we are too narrow-mind and we always like to anticipate someone else to do it rather than acting it by ourselves. So I am always wondering who are the idiots???
15 January, 2010
{.........}
High high on the peak of the world.
Anticipations are vibrate in words.
Intensions are said to be coerce and certain.
Let’s say my endeavor is invincible.
Along the diversity of stares.
Among the dimensional corners.
Sequences of souls,
Breath is declared to insulate in mask.
When the glitters of enlightenment rainbows,
Then the monuments are preserved with bows.
Thou congregate to consecrate the deeds,
Bestow by the holy one indeed.
Thy satisfaction arose,
Thy penetration rejoiced.
From the ornamented pulpit,
Heavenly purified clergy.
His raining preaching,
Holiness is the teaching.
With bows and folded hands,
We close our eyes to see.
They! There are…!
Assembling the beats of hearts,
Which can be heard by deaf.
With promise smile.
Stand by proper mile.
Race to pace.
Yes! We chorus together,
OM MANI PADME HUNG!!!
Anticipations are vibrate in words.
Intensions are said to be coerce and certain.
Let’s say my endeavor is invincible.
Along the diversity of stares.
Among the dimensional corners.
Sequences of souls,
Breath is declared to insulate in mask.
When the glitters of enlightenment rainbows,
Then the monuments are preserved with bows.
Thou congregate to consecrate the deeds,
Bestow by the holy one indeed.
Thy satisfaction arose,
Thy penetration rejoiced.
From the ornamented pulpit,
Heavenly purified clergy.
His raining preaching,
Holiness is the teaching.
With bows and folded hands,
We close our eyes to see.
They! There are…!
Assembling the beats of hearts,
Which can be heard by deaf.
With promise smile.
Stand by proper mile.
Race to pace.
Yes! We chorus together,
OM MANI PADME HUNG!!!
K.K. part-3
When I wrote the first part of this serial, she asked me “what are you going to write for the next part?” at that time I told her nothing but inside me I know the question is not what I am going to write next but when I am going to write next. In life we met many different people with whom we spent great amount of time together to get know each other, with the result of such acquiesce we marked the relation with various names, for us, though the duration is short we named our relation friendship, you may acknowledged it as custom to address some one 'friend' in matter of routine communication and interaction just to skipped away from the hook of impudence. Our relation was indeed a friendship from the beginning, kind of thing that only happens but could not embedded in elaboration. Initially with limit information, her countenance flashes the glitter of decency with hard working personality which I was fortunate to notify with my observation, which was also the primary foundation of my confirmative sensation to materialize a good relation with this young girl. This believe was strengthened by ensuing encounter with her in the last few months, her frankness, her sincerity, her enthusiastic, her industry and her dedication. She frequently complained of being inability to pay the gratitude [though I think such things are not exist from my side] that I own her, but what she doesn’t know is the inspiration and appreciation that she gave me, I am a man of free thinker and actor as I used to tell her, consequently I find it hard to control myself and use all my potentials properly where it should work, but after knowing her, she play kind of encouragement instrument for me to push myself harder than before, now I always think about what might be her action if the same thing is done by her whenever I am doing something, and comparing to previous year, I am writing more, reading more, and studying more, this is all of her manifestation, still she complain of doing nothing for me!!! Actually I always want to remind her of her influence but I know she will never accept it and if worst she may upset and that’s the last thing I want to do.
When I retrospect back to last few months of our relation, we cultivated such profound and steadfast bound that can stand shoulder to shoulder with the relations which have the history of a decade or so, and I felt proud of it whenever I think about it. Accordingly I convey my thanks to her on different occasions and when she asked me why, I just answered her “Thanks for being my friend.” I used this phrase for her in several events and will use in the future because this phrase can decipher the things that has to conceal under the shadow.
I fantasy life as a mixture of dreams where everything happens but not as things we wanted to figure out, sometime we have to sacrifice, sometime we have to grab and sometime we have to forge, but the master of all episodes is the illusion that creates the dream. Similarly in life, we have to adjustment with undesired circumstances which imposed us to act against our own interest. And I am a warrior to fight against this impulsion because I assumed our life is our life, which has to lead by our own instinct and distinct rather than other’s directions and distraction, so that at the last minute, we don’t have to flatter other people when something good is happen and don’t need to regret when something bad is emerged. After all, it is us who govern our self.
Though I really don’t want to think about it, it is nature of every relation to end in one particular moment. And in our relation, I don’t know about her perception but from me, I command the eternity drama to depict the conclusion. Till that moment, I am trying my best to stimulate this relation stronger than ever, but I want to request her. Umm….well, I know she is going to read this article, so why don’t just get straight to her. Good idea!!!
Hey k.k.! Don’t expect a sainthood nature from me, and don’t be a perfectionist to seek perfection out of me because I am just an ordinary, naughty, [more than naught@] selfish, aimless and useless man. When I think about the great men, when I read great books, when I contemplate deep down inside me, I know where I am and I felt like I have nothing to offer for other people, just a parasite! But as much long as you think I can be your assist than I will swear, [sorry, let me swear this time.] I will do my best lo. I am not finished now but I know my letter is already too long so let me write more in the next composition and yes! I still have to write about your innocent smile as i promised earlier. Did you notice that you have an innocent smile? NO? Try to see it in mirror when you get back to room lo. Hey one last thing before I conclude for the moment, if you don’t like me to write about you and post it in my blog than just express it without any hesitation. Even I can’t promise that I won’t write about you but I will promise you, I won’t post it on my blog.
TASHI DELEK!!!
When I retrospect back to last few months of our relation, we cultivated such profound and steadfast bound that can stand shoulder to shoulder with the relations which have the history of a decade or so, and I felt proud of it whenever I think about it. Accordingly I convey my thanks to her on different occasions and when she asked me why, I just answered her “Thanks for being my friend.” I used this phrase for her in several events and will use in the future because this phrase can decipher the things that has to conceal under the shadow.
I fantasy life as a mixture of dreams where everything happens but not as things we wanted to figure out, sometime we have to sacrifice, sometime we have to grab and sometime we have to forge, but the master of all episodes is the illusion that creates the dream. Similarly in life, we have to adjustment with undesired circumstances which imposed us to act against our own interest. And I am a warrior to fight against this impulsion because I assumed our life is our life, which has to lead by our own instinct and distinct rather than other’s directions and distraction, so that at the last minute, we don’t have to flatter other people when something good is happen and don’t need to regret when something bad is emerged. After all, it is us who govern our self.
Though I really don’t want to think about it, it is nature of every relation to end in one particular moment. And in our relation, I don’t know about her perception but from me, I command the eternity drama to depict the conclusion. Till that moment, I am trying my best to stimulate this relation stronger than ever, but I want to request her. Umm….well, I know she is going to read this article, so why don’t just get straight to her. Good idea!!!
Hey k.k.! Don’t expect a sainthood nature from me, and don’t be a perfectionist to seek perfection out of me because I am just an ordinary, naughty, [more than naught@] selfish, aimless and useless man. When I think about the great men, when I read great books, when I contemplate deep down inside me, I know where I am and I felt like I have nothing to offer for other people, just a parasite! But as much long as you think I can be your assist than I will swear, [sorry, let me swear this time.] I will do my best lo. I am not finished now but I know my letter is already too long so let me write more in the next composition and yes! I still have to write about your innocent smile as i promised earlier. Did you notice that you have an innocent smile? NO? Try to see it in mirror when you get back to room lo. Hey one last thing before I conclude for the moment, if you don’t like me to write about you and post it in my blog than just express it without any hesitation. Even I can’t promise that I won’t write about you but I will promise you, I won’t post it on my blog.
TASHI DELEK!!!
01 January, 2010
My New Year Resolution.
For the last few years, to be price it is four, i have been laying resolutions for every year but funny thing is that i even don't remember some of them !!! Right now i am just refreshing myself from the squander moment that i had last night when i try to celebrate the New Year Eve by watching my collegues dancing to the most beautiful tones of the year. It is 2010 now, that means i have been on this planet for more than 20 years and when i look back to myself, i feel like i am still far away from requisition, i mean i really can't find a @!%&%%! thing to be proud and previliged in myself. I am totally sucked, i know what is my strength and advantages, but i found them tooo late that now i felt like i could not have found them at the first place. In life, we assume that we had lots of time to plan and curve our future, accordingly we just ignore them away and try to find out some of the things which can entertained us for a very short duration, gradually we forget we had a life to lead, we had a breath to take and we had a stomach to feed. My Teacher used to advice me that it is easy to feed your life if you can hold your pen on the right place, if no, you are only living for your stomach!
I have spent last four years in a university which provide one of the finest facilities matchable to my standard and position, still when i look back, i felt like i waste them, I thank the dear God that, there is not a Dearest one to fear for me if i am hurt or Nearest one to care for me if i am sick. Otherwise i can't face them with a proper and genuine smile. You know why? because i don't deserve such smile.
Year after year, i made some resolutions then broke them. My friends said, 'promises and resolutions are made to broke'. I don't believe them because i know they are saying so to avoid their inability of making resolution and keeping it. But what about me? I made resolutions but couldn't keep them, at least not all of them.
Yesterday i spent large amount of time to figure out some resolutions, but couldn't find some which relieved me after selection, because i am scare to lose the battle after few days, or few weeks. Hence, i have only kept very few resolutions which i am trying my best to keep strong and health. Actually i am writing this words in our university computer lab as i came here to attend the class, there is no class so i am killing my time here and suddenly rose the instinct to write something which i really felt. So, this compositions is without correction-clean-page that is necessary, this words are mostly ordinary phrases which i think can express my feeling properly, and this essay is first one i write in the new year with promise of...................................
DOING BETTER AND BECOMING BETTER!!!
God Bless Me !!!
I have spent last four years in a university which provide one of the finest facilities matchable to my standard and position, still when i look back, i felt like i waste them, I thank the dear God that, there is not a Dearest one to fear for me if i am hurt or Nearest one to care for me if i am sick. Otherwise i can't face them with a proper and genuine smile. You know why? because i don't deserve such smile.
Year after year, i made some resolutions then broke them. My friends said, 'promises and resolutions are made to broke'. I don't believe them because i know they are saying so to avoid their inability of making resolution and keeping it. But what about me? I made resolutions but couldn't keep them, at least not all of them.
Yesterday i spent large amount of time to figure out some resolutions, but couldn't find some which relieved me after selection, because i am scare to lose the battle after few days, or few weeks. Hence, i have only kept very few resolutions which i am trying my best to keep strong and health. Actually i am writing this words in our university computer lab as i came here to attend the class, there is no class so i am killing my time here and suddenly rose the instinct to write something which i really felt. So, this compositions is without correction-clean-page that is necessary, this words are mostly ordinary phrases which i think can express my feeling properly, and this essay is first one i write in the new year with promise of...................................
DOING BETTER AND BECOMING BETTER!!!
God Bless Me !!!
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