For the last few years, to be price it is four, i have been laying resolutions for every year but funny thing is that i even don't remember some of them !!! Right now i am just refreshing myself from the squander moment that i had last night when i try to celebrate the New Year Eve by watching my collegues dancing to the most beautiful tones of the year. It is 2010 now, that means i have been on this planet for more than 20 years and when i look back to myself, i feel like i am still far away from requisition, i mean i really can't find a @!%&%%! thing to be proud and previliged in myself. I am totally sucked, i know what is my strength and advantages, but i found them tooo late that now i felt like i could not have found them at the first place. In life, we assume that we had lots of time to plan and curve our future, accordingly we just ignore them away and try to find out some of the things which can entertained us for a very short duration, gradually we forget we had a life to lead, we had a breath to take and we had a stomach to feed. My Teacher used to advice me that it is easy to feed your life if you can hold your pen on the right place, if no, you are only living for your stomach!
I have spent last four years in a university which provide one of the finest facilities matchable to my standard and position, still when i look back, i felt like i waste them, I thank the dear God that, there is not a Dearest one to fear for me if i am hurt or Nearest one to care for me if i am sick. Otherwise i can't face them with a proper and genuine smile. You know why? because i don't deserve such smile.
Year after year, i made some resolutions then broke them. My friends said, 'promises and resolutions are made to broke'. I don't believe them because i know they are saying so to avoid their inability of making resolution and keeping it. But what about me? I made resolutions but couldn't keep them, at least not all of them.
Yesterday i spent large amount of time to figure out some resolutions, but couldn't find some which relieved me after selection, because i am scare to lose the battle after few days, or few weeks. Hence, i have only kept very few resolutions which i am trying my best to keep strong and health. Actually i am writing this words in our university computer lab as i came here to attend the class, there is no class so i am killing my time here and suddenly rose the instinct to write something which i really felt. So, this compositions is without correction-clean-page that is necessary, this words are mostly ordinary phrases which i think can express my feeling properly, and this essay is first one i write in the new year with promise of...................................
DOING BETTER AND BECOMING BETTER!!!
God Bless Me !!!
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