When I wrote the first part of this serial, she asked me “what are you going to write for the next part?” at that time I told her nothing but inside me I know the question is not what I am going to write next but when I am going to write next. In life we met many different people with whom we spent great amount of time together to get know each other, with the result of such acquiesce we marked the relation with various names, for us, though the duration is short we named our relation friendship, you may acknowledged it as custom to address some one 'friend' in matter of routine communication and interaction just to skipped away from the hook of impudence. Our relation was indeed a friendship from the beginning, kind of thing that only happens but could not embedded in elaboration. Initially with limit information, her countenance flashes the glitter of decency with hard working personality which I was fortunate to notify with my observation, which was also the primary foundation of my confirmative sensation to materialize a good relation with this young girl. This believe was strengthened by ensuing encounter with her in the last few months, her frankness, her sincerity, her enthusiastic, her industry and her dedication. She frequently complained of being inability to pay the gratitude [though I think such things are not exist from my side] that I own her, but what she doesn’t know is the inspiration and appreciation that she gave me, I am a man of free thinker and actor as I used to tell her, consequently I find it hard to control myself and use all my potentials properly where it should work, but after knowing her, she play kind of encouragement instrument for me to push myself harder than before, now I always think about what might be her action if the same thing is done by her whenever I am doing something, and comparing to previous year, I am writing more, reading more, and studying more, this is all of her manifestation, still she complain of doing nothing for me!!! Actually I always want to remind her of her influence but I know she will never accept it and if worst she may upset and that’s the last thing I want to do.
When I retrospect back to last few months of our relation, we cultivated such profound and steadfast bound that can stand shoulder to shoulder with the relations which have the history of a decade or so, and I felt proud of it whenever I think about it. Accordingly I convey my thanks to her on different occasions and when she asked me why, I just answered her “Thanks for being my friend.” I used this phrase for her in several events and will use in the future because this phrase can decipher the things that has to conceal under the shadow.
I fantasy life as a mixture of dreams where everything happens but not as things we wanted to figure out, sometime we have to sacrifice, sometime we have to grab and sometime we have to forge, but the master of all episodes is the illusion that creates the dream. Similarly in life, we have to adjustment with undesired circumstances which imposed us to act against our own interest. And I am a warrior to fight against this impulsion because I assumed our life is our life, which has to lead by our own instinct and distinct rather than other’s directions and distraction, so that at the last minute, we don’t have to flatter other people when something good is happen and don’t need to regret when something bad is emerged. After all, it is us who govern our self.
Though I really don’t want to think about it, it is nature of every relation to end in one particular moment. And in our relation, I don’t know about her perception but from me, I command the eternity drama to depict the conclusion. Till that moment, I am trying my best to stimulate this relation stronger than ever, but I want to request her. Umm….well, I know she is going to read this article, so why don’t just get straight to her. Good idea!!!
Hey k.k.! Don’t expect a sainthood nature from me, and don’t be a perfectionist to seek perfection out of me because I am just an ordinary, naughty, [more than naught@] selfish, aimless and useless man. When I think about the great men, when I read great books, when I contemplate deep down inside me, I know where I am and I felt like I have nothing to offer for other people, just a parasite! But as much long as you think I can be your assist than I will swear, [sorry, let me swear this time.] I will do my best lo. I am not finished now but I know my letter is already too long so let me write more in the next composition and yes! I still have to write about your innocent smile as i promised earlier. Did you notice that you have an innocent smile? NO? Try to see it in mirror when you get back to room lo. Hey one last thing before I conclude for the moment, if you don’t like me to write about you and post it in my blog than just express it without any hesitation. Even I can’t promise that I won’t write about you but I will promise you, I won’t post it on my blog.
TASHI DELEK!!!
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